Finally know .

Hello everybody . Yes its me . Its been so long since i updated my blog . The reason why i decided to blog again is because i've been so stressed recently . Actually not recently , its few months back . Hmm , many things happened in my life . I felt so hopeless , feeling so down , wondering to myself , why am i born in the first place when god have no plans for me . Yea i know you all may thinking how stupid am i to depend on god . Yea , i tried depending on myself . But i failed , that's why i depend on god . But he didnt hear me at all . I pray pray pray . Pray that he will give me a better life . A better place to stay . Eventually he still didnt hear me . So , i give up . I don't know how much longer i can keep myself "alive" in this world . I guess i just have to try harder ;)

I am so happy that i had him back . Even though he cant have the same trust he have on me like before but i still got to say that i'm very happy to have him back . I am so stupid i don't know why i left him for that spongebob . Thinking back about it , I felt like i'm being possessed at that time . If time could rewind , i will see how important you are to me . I will listen to you , be your one and only , wouldn't had been such a bitch , hurting you over and over again . I'm wrong . I finally get all my karmas back . I will not complain . Because i love you . I know this three words to you is like bullshits coming out of my mouth . So i've decided after you scolded me for the first time in 2years . You never scold me before . You said because you pampered me too much that's why everything will turn out this way . I know , its my fault . I will face everything . How people judge me , i understand (: All i want now is just be by your side . I don't care what's the reason you patched with me . You wanna play my feelings . You wanna cheat on me . You wanna do the same thing i did to you . Its alright :) I love you , i finally know how much i love you , how much i needed you .
i know saying all these doesn't help anything , time can't be rewind . Everything had alr happened .
I don't beg for a second chance because i don't deserve it . (:

A picture taken when e just patched . 

That's all for today . (: